To All The Girls I've Loved Before (5c)

I AM

If I pay attention to them
I will remain
Stunted in growth, stagnant and stale
I will not be all I'm made to be...

If I pay attention to the foibles
and flaws
I will not grow...
I will not advance

And I so desperately need to grow
to realize my potentials fully
for I am a person too
distinct, smart, gifted and great.

I am a person too...
i must not allow myself to be swallowed up
in conceptions and expectations
in ordinariness and averageness...

I am a person too; unique and great
with the power to be the bigger person
i must not allow myself to be swallowed up
in the myth of "the missus"

...Maureen Mancee (Mrs.)

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XX Editor's note XX

The poem above was written and displayed by the delightful MMM for the benefit of a certain Mr Mancee (MM).

Research has it that it was written after a battery of counselling sessions when the multitude of counsellors seemed intent on getting said Author to be more 'wifely'. They are reported as seemingly arriving at the same conclusion after listening to either side and often had this to say, "Maureen, you need to pay attention to your home and your husband".

MMM, a "Social Non-conformist" (as she calls herself) did not find this a workable option.

MM was to have an eureka moment some years later when it became obvious that no one had asked MMM what she 'wanted' to be, as opposed to what she was 'expected' to be.
The said epiphany was spawned when MMM called MM and said (verbatim) 'I can never be the wife who cooks and cleans'.

Report reaching us has it that He has since been defending her position vehemently, demanding that everyone who cares to listen respect her choice/decision; asking for only one thing in return; the right to choose to be who he also wants to be.

To All The Girls I've Loved Before (5b)

SANCTUARY


Maureen,
 
In this life we share together
 
Per time and from time to time
 
One or both of us may want out...
 
Drown the sun in our personal miseries and daemons.
 
 
 
All the rain and all the pain
 
I hope its for the good
 
It is revealed we could be together for ever
 
And I'm ready to make that move
 
Cross that line with you with me
 
We could put some joy in each other's tears
 
The sun shines laughter when we live as one
 
And there's peace for those who believe in love
 
Lets go for Ours
 
Because dreams come true

though we often do dream in metaphors

 and dreams ( sometimes unreliable souls, I agree)
 
they show us the paths of our longings...


All I ever longed for was some love and peace and harmony

To dance in the raw in the sun underneath the stars


 
See,

I want you to trust me
 
Trust my wisdom and my directions
 
Trust my idiotic stupidities too
 
Trust my head to wander often like a tramp
 
Trust my heart to always bring me home
 
Trust me to never cease from seeking greatness
 
And my heart to find it all lies in you
 
With you is what my life is about 
 
I am not afraid to love
 
I pray the distance gives my pain sound
 
In this here world-I will love some more
 
In front of the eyes of others
 
I will love you outside and inside me
 
In that place that's Our private treasure
 
In this life we share together
 
Let our individuality strengthen our love
 

 When I'm asked "Are you truly happy?" I'd say "Yes, truly"
But down here in reality everybody knows there ain't no such thing
And it's clear

It's obvious this here is not the place I'm supposed to be
On and on and on I've searched
What I'm looking for is here on earth with You
So I know that I gotta come to you
 
And I'm ready to make that move
 
I for one know my search is over
 
The Spirit bears witness with my spirit
 
Home for me will always be where you are.
  
 
Ps: may I come home?